#1 from Ryan on May 28, 2010

If only i had heard this sermon while i still saw the bible as gods absolute truthful word. Nihilism was my worldview prior to belief ,and looking back it appears now that all i ever did was take jesus and attach him to a nihilistic worldview. I also never saw myself as one who “worshiped” anything , i saw myself as indifferent to most things which others strive for. Money , appearance etc etc. But oblivious to myself then, looking back now, is how i saw my intellect as that which defined me. I said it didnt , but my words and deeds said otherwise. It was what made me me , it was what made me different from others , it was what made me valuable. NOT that i was a chosen one of the most high. Quiet and sneaky is how this ailment ruined me , yet looking back how obvious it must have been to others.  Hmmm , funny it is , even now struggling with the the authenticity of scripture and the benevolence of god how much wisdom i find in christian theology. (which doesnt change anything). Being in limbo , no longer absolute biblical christian yet not willing to fall back into complete nihilism.

I do have one question though , for anyone willing to give an answer. Can a real faith of substance more than just intellectual conceptions be halted by intellectual objections? This question i honestly have no idea the answer. Redundant in some ways i feel the question to be , but still ,i would like to know it from the side of the fence i no longer see.

#2 from Nathan on May 29, 2010

This was great jeff!